When I googled my best friends’ BMI, search results said “death imminent”.

Kill Ana is a story based on a diary I kept during our year living together at University, when we took a DIY approach to her mental health.

Ella wanted her freedom and I was torn between honouring our friendship and keeping her safe.

Although it was life threatening, it didn’t always feel that way. It was also one of the most intense, fulfilling, honest and often hilarious relationships that I have ever had.

At the time I found plenty of guidance for sufferers of the disorder and for the parents or carers, but not much for the friendships around them.

The story aims to go beyond the internal mechanisms of the eating disorder, focusing on the realities of co-dependency, recovery and forgiveness.

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