Audio from the short film I made based on a conversation between my flatmate Rachel and I, sparked by the #BlackLivesMatter protests in Birmingham, UK (2020).
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Points brought up in this conversation:
Why we’re not at the protest.
The anxiety felt.
Friends, family & church that went to show their support, checking in.
Everyone’s eyes are being opened – it’s really powerful
People at home can’t get away from it this time round. So they’re having to face it. They’ve got time, during the lockdown status around the pandemic.
I talk about my ex telling me Britain ended slavery”. Also capitalism, property and humanity
The times we’re in and why I had to leave my job,
plus ways to save the world
What happens when you have spare time
The importance of people having time right now to think, read, feel and act. Time is a remedy for ignorance
People have been intentionally blinded, but now they see.
It’s the realness, the conversations happening – everyone knows somebody.
People seem surprised, they feel like the wool has been pulled over their eyes – the wool is Privilege. They’ve never known the trauma of having dark skin.
It’s the little things, as well. From self maintenance to media and health care to technology and algorithms.
Feels like the end of the world is coming
[Rachel]: My heart is wretched. I’m mad, hurt, we’re suffered trauma…it’s a mental health issue. This is something black people have and we deal with and we don’t have a name for it. That’s in itself kinda crazy – the fact that we don’t have a name for it so we can’t say. People say trauma…but this level of it…where it goes up and down, and you’re told things as a kid, and it’s heavy, and you can never get away with it. You have to live through it all the time. And we deal with it. It’s like we’re superhuman.
Why don’t we have a name for it? The experiences we’re having? People say trauma, but this level is heavy. And you never get away from it. But we deal with it.
The difference between racism and racist
On light-skinned privilege.
Privilege is a hard pill to swallow.
Those getting murdered by police, the lack on the big screen – it’s darker skin.
‘I don’t see colour’ narrative- denying the reality of our skin.
We’ve had to make our own movements.
#BlackGirlMagic – about feeling beautiful.
Barbies & Eczema
The drama of make-up for brown skin
The struggle to find the right makeup
EDL protests in Liverpool & Dudley
People are screaming how can I be an ally
Audre Lorde: ‘the master’s house will never dismantle the master’s tools’
We need our own space
My silence has not protected me, my silence will not protect you
It’s heavy and never goes away
Sometimes when I’m debating with some people it’s a drain and it saps you quickly and it leaves you as someone you don’t recognize.
Manipulation. Trump. Propaganda.
I get my news second hand – another drain.
What we want people to take away from this:
Use your voice. Share your experiences
I think that in itself is growth for a person right now.
Listen to the stories. Hear what others have to say and how they feel.
And I think it’s transformative to know your story and know where you wanna be and know where you are. It frees you up to focus on what you need to do now. Take stock of what resources you have to do it, and where you wanna go, and do the thing.
Use that energy, having these feelings, go into that, lean into that.
Finally we touch on the song “Harder they come, the harder they fall”
A song for those who couldn’t get to the protests and why that one.
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